The Past Few Months

Hello out there blogging world, long time no see.

It has seriously been forever since I've looked at my poor little neglected blog, and I feel awful about that. I love the blogging world, I love being a part of it. And I know I've said this before but I mean it this time I am honestly going to try and get back in the swing of things here.

Many bloggers intentionally take breaks from blogging, my brake was not fully intentional, it was for a little while, like the first month was moderately on purpose. But then that month passed and then another and another, and the longer I went without posting the harder it was to get back to it. And it certainly hasn't helped that the last 8 months have been crazy and have turned my life upside down and backwards, making me face situations that have changed nearly everything about my life. 

So where do I even start to explain all the events that have transpired? 

In one day at the end of April my life changed forever, everything turned upside down. My step fathers 93 year old uncle passed away. Now this even of it's  self doesn't seem like it would turn everything upside down to the average person, yes it was very sad, yes he is greatly missed by the community. But he was also in his 90s so it didn't come as to much of a shock to most. He lived with my 85 year old step grandmother, and after he passed everyone knew that she couldn't be all alone in that big house. So my mom and step dad moved in with her, and that threw me into living on my own for the first time in my life. Now most 20 year olds would be jumping for joy to basically be given a house, but I'm not most 20 year olds. When I thought of living on my own I thought of moving into an apartment in a nice little city or town, not a farm house in the middle of nowhere. But I can't complain to much, it's a house and it's mine. Yes it's not an ideal situation, yes it can be very lonely at times, and yes it has been a very big adjustment, but it could be much worse. It's been 6 months now of living alone, and so far I'm doing okay with it. It has been an emotional struggle at times, but I am coming to grips with it. 

After all that happened and the initial craziness was was over, I tried for most of the summer to find a job, with no success. I put out an application at nearly every place around, even Mcdonald's, and I didn't get even a call back from any of them. And most of them point blank said that because I don't have previous job experience they won't hire me. How exactly am I supposed to get experience if I can't get a job? This is my third year of trying to find a job with no luck. At this point I am pretty sure no one in this area will ever hire me. But we'll see I guess.

Over the summer there were other hiccups, my car died one day when I was out yard saling and I haven't been able to replace it yet, luckily I can usually borrow moms car when ever I need it. Nearly the whole county was out of power for a week after a bad storm. I've run into household problems that I had to learn to deal with, Just to name a few.

But this post isn't all doom and gloom. I have also had some very very good and wonderful things happen this year. In February My boyfriend Sam, asked me to be his girlfriend and I said yes. We've been together for nearly 8 months now. He has helped me get through all of these hard times and made me smile more then I ever knew possible. He lives in Massachusetts, so right now it is long distance. I know most people really won't understand that, yes it's hard, it has challenges, but we face them together and it makes us a stronger couple. I plan on doing a post about how we handle the distance at some point soon. 

In September, we got to spend a week together, and it was simply one of the best weeks of my life, and I can't wait until our next visit.

The last few months have changed my life very dramatically. It has been a whirlwind of things, and I'm sure it's not anywhere near calm yet. But that's just life sometimes, things have to be turned upside down before they can be put back in order. 

So that has been my life during my break in blogging. And now I am truly ready to start again. it might take me awhile to get back fully into it, but I'm sure going to try!

Have a wonderful day and thank you for reading.

Lexi